2010 – The year of making a difference

I’ve decided that 2010 is the year of making a difference.

Both to my life and to other people’s.
Mostly, this means that I’ll be working my butt off.

This is how I’m going to do it (I’ll probably add to this list before Jan 1) :

I’m going to put some solid work in on improving the store and getting all those odd little things sorted out. I’m looking into having an apprentice or trainee coming to work with us. There’s so much more that could be done if there were more hands to do it. The old working ‘in’ the business instead of ‘on’ it headache of small biz owners everywhere.

I’m going to make time for exercise/play/dance – partly because my plan for 2011 involves me being on stage somewhere and it’s too hard to find costumes/roles for the shape I am at the moment – but also because I feel a hundred times better when I’m doing something physical that I enjoy.

I’ll learn to drive. I still don’t really want to, for various reasons. But I’m also planning things that involve lots of being out after dark and I would rather spend half an hour extra at home than waiting for a night bus to come along.

I’m going to do more for other people, particularly  for people I care about.  I’ve been feeling disconnected and wrapped up in my own world, which I hate, so this is going to help with that.

I’m going to read a book a week. Cook at least 1 meal a week. Waste less time watching mindless things and more time learning things.

Letting Go

sorry for such a fragmented post. this is hard

Yesterday we had a party to celebrate my Nana’s life, including releasing yellow and white balloons, lighting candles and listening to her favourite music.
The week before, she took her last breath as Mum, Dad, Amy and myself held her in our arms.

Life without her seems inconceivable. But it will go on. Clocks will keep ticking and the sun will rise and set as it always has. We have to somehow let go of someone who was a huge part of our lives. It still doesn’t seem real.

Nana taught me how to knit. A few times, because I was never any good at it. I’ve only ever knitted one scarf and it took me forever, and it ended up way too wide and way too short. And the only good rows are those ones she sneaked in for me to help me along.

Nana taught me how to wrap a present. Again, she tried but I never quite got the hang of it. I can make presents pretty, with ribbons and bows, but the actual wrapping part… well, I’ve always said a quiet apology each time I’ve tucked in a chunky corner and stuck it down with a wonky piece of sticky tape.

Nana always made handmade cards for birthdays and christmas, and one of the last things I did with her before she went into hospital was sort out this years set of cards. She always decorated the insides of her cards as well and made sure they had a nice verse in them. She didn’t get a chance to write in her cards this year, the cancer and the pain were making her too ‘doolally’ (as she would say) and we thought we’d leave it for a few days until the pain was a little more under control. However, things progressed quicker than anyone expected and the cards are still unwritten. (I’ll be sending them out sometime in the next week or so)

Yellow roses were Nana’s favourite flower, and so Mum, Amy and I bought a yellow rose bush each with the last bit of cash Nana had in her purse.

This is the little booklet I made to give friends and family – it wasn’t a ‘funeral program’ as such but more a little memento with some interesting facts about Nana’s life.

this was originally going to be a links post

Once upon a time, somewhere around year 8, I had a headache at school, and went to the nurses office. I was told to lay down on one of the beds and spend the afternoon there until it was time to go home. There was a pile of books next to the beds and the one I picked up was SARK’s ‘Inspiration Sandwich’.
It was a lightbulb moment for me because it just clicked perfectly with my view of the world and the way I wanted to live my life.

To put things in context, a bit about what my world view is:

I was pretty depressed at 13/14, and I suppose kind of nihilistic too. I pretty much viewed myself as an outsider or observer and sometimes I’d do things just to see how people would react. I used to sit on the ledge of a multistory carpark and see how many people walked by without saying anything (more than even I’d expected). I was a performer and I loved it because I could become someone else – not because I didn’t like myself, but mostly because I was at a stage where I didn’t really know who I was. Other than the usual hormonal things, there wasn’t anything happening in my life that I was depressed about in particular, but the general feeling of pointlessness made life seem pretty dismal.

Then one day I’d had enough. Something clicked when I was sitting in my spot at the carpark and I just decided that things were going to be different. My whole attitude to everything changed and I just decided that I was going to be happy and positive from then on. I’ve always had a bit of a pick n mix approach to philosophy/religion. I had quite a spiritual upbringing (My mum & grandad ran a psychic development group) but I’m also quite analytical and science-y at heart.

I don’t believe in a single higher power, or entity or creator. I do believe in energy and that there is more going on in the universe than our science has fully understood as yet. I believe in karma and affirmations and the benefits of meditation and positive self talk. I believe that we choose how we react to every given situation. It’s very easy to choose the path of least resistance and that is how downward spirals begin. I believe in salience and coincidence and that you’ll generally see what you want to see. But mostly I believe that we are in control of our experience of the world – even when everything seems out of our control, there are always little decisions that we make that can make a difference to how we feel about things at least.

Okay. enough ramble. Here is what came here to post.

Keri Smith is pretty great. I was very jealous when Mum bought Wreck this Journal. But I got to help her wreck it, so I forgive her for being cooler than me. You should look through Keri’s whole webpage, but this is what I read today that I had to share:
Keri has secret powers

SARK used to have a little camp on the internet and it grew and grew and it’s now a planet. I have owned a few of her books in the past, but I loaned them out to people and never saw them again. I like to think that they needed them more than me. When I’m a billionaire I’ll buy multiple copies of her books and give them out to people on public transport.
Visit PlanetSARK

The Lost Soul Companion – particularly the things to do instead of killing yourself list.

Tera’s Wish

Okay, it’s time to close up the shop and go see how Nana’s going. I’ll post some more links later on, when I go through my bookmarks at home.

Another bad-blogger guilt post (Hi Brenda!)

Once again, it’s been a while since I’ve posted on here.

I really need to get myself a card reader for the shop computer, then I can upload pictures from here and posting will be much easier.

We’re all moved into our new house and to be honest, we haven’t really done much decorating or anything like that yet. We’ve painted one room so far, and then we started on the kitchen. I say ‘we’ started on the kitchen. That’s mostly been Jesse’s job. He ripped out the old one all by himself and put together most of the new kitchen cabinets as well. I’ve helped with a few of the cabinets and we’re still far from done. It’ll be a few more weeks before we get a plumber in to put in our dishwasher (yay!!!) and then we have to get everything in place and level, measure up for the benchtop and get it ordered. The we have to find some tiles to match up with the existing tiles, paint around them… you get the picture. There’s lots to do.

I haven’t been experimenting much craft-wise lately. I’ve started a new art journal which I have promised myself I will work in, unrestrained and messy, until it is full before I start any other journal type projects. We’ll see how I go with that though, we’ve heard it all before. =)

Today I’ve been making 3d flowers from the paper flowers and silk flowers I’ve had laying around. I made one yesterday to demonstrate the technique for a customer and I’ve been making them compulsively ever since.

I have plans to have a fabulous crafternoon with a friend of mine who designs clothes and dabbles in jewelery making. She’s got a fabulous glamorous extravagant style so it should be super fun. I have no idea what we’ll make, but I have an inkling it’ll involve things that are large, sparkly, textural and colourful.

Well that’s all for now. It’s a long weekend this week, so I think I’ll take Monday off and try to upload some of the things I’ve made for sale to my etsy page… only time will tell if I actually get it done though!

Blast from the past

Miss Tara’s post about the first gig she went to reminded me it’d be far far too long since I listened to George.

George was the first band I ever bought tickets to and went to see by myself. (I’m sure there were other gigs I’d been to with family etc. and there were countless shows, but this was the first band I said ‘lets go see them’ to) I went with Gemma, my best friend at the time and we had a really great night. I still have the souvenir sticker I bought somewhere- probably tucked away in a journal.

Anyway, have a listen to the youtube video I’ve posted here and then go buy their music at http://www.george.net.au or itunes.

Well, It’s been a while.

Hello blog land!

It’s been a while since I checked in here. Even though I haven’t been posting, I have been trying to keep up to date with the blogs that come through in my reader, although not that successfully. There’s so many people writing great posts that there’s not enough hours in the day to keep up with them all.

What have I been up to since Feb that’s been keeping me so busy?

– We relocated the shop.
– I taught art and craft classes on a cruise.
– Jesse and I bought a house.

So it’s been a pretty big 5 months for me!

I’m loving the new store. It’s finally getting to be the shop that we’ve always dreamed of. Things like floorboards and a nice paint job, and better shop fittings and signage, a workshop space, parking, a place for (almost) everything and a slight change to the stock to reflect ‘us’ a little more have made Scrappindipity such a great place to be. For example, Mum and I were at the shop today, busy working and playing away. Mum checked the time to see if she had time for a cuppa before it was time to pack up and we’d already been open for 40 mins longer than we were supposed to.

The cruise! Where do I start? I got an email from an agent one day back at the old store (it was a Wednesday) asking if I wanted to teach art and craft on a cruise leaving on Friday. Yes, 2 days time. I said ‘Yes’ partly thinking it was a joke. As it turned out, that particular cruise got double booked, but the agent kept in touch and offered us other cruises. We could have taken a 42 day cruise – but we thought that might be a bit too long in case things didn’t go well, and it was also the month we were planning on moving the shop. So I watched that one sail away one day and we spent the next month relocating the store.
When the ship (The Sun Princess) returned to Fremantle, we got on it for a 16 day cruise to Penang, Phuket, Langkawi, KL, Singapore & Geraldton.

It was an amazing experience. I’ve always wanted to go on a cruise and I honestly didn’t think I would until I was 90.
The food was to DIE(t) for. 5 star service, 3-4 course meals, 3 times a day. 24 hour buffet if you prefer.
The classes were really popular (so much so that we had to split every kit in half and still turn people away).
The ports were beautiful, the staff were lovely, the other cruisers were great fun, the shows were entertaining, the musicians were wonderful.
We were in the crew area, next to the musicians, and one night I had the string trio lull me to sleep with gypsy tunes. Bliss!

Being in the middle of the ocean was an experience in itself. No land in any direction for days. Terrifying on one hand, but then you give into it and the amount of calm the feeling of insignificance brings is unbelievable.

I could definitely get used to cruising. Hopefully we’ll be asked again!

Jesse and I are currently finishing up the paperwork to buy our first home. We’ve been living with my parents for around 7 months to save up and pay off some debts and we’re finally, nearly, there. It’ll be great for all of us to have our own space again, and I can’t wait to paint!

There’ll be more posted soon about the new house when we move in and start renovating. Eee!
So stay tuned for pictures and projects as I magically transform into the perfect handy housewife. (ha!)

Well I think that’s all for now. If you’re still here, thanks for reading and my apologies for being gone for so long – as you can imagine, there’s been a lot happening recently!

And we have some winners!

It was a huge month in blogland with OWOH reaching a total of 911 participants. Unbelievable! I have now draw the winners of my prizes… drumroll please. winner-owohThe winner of the choose your own bottlecap pendant is: Comment #125 –SpiritMama // February 1, 2009 at 3:50 am

What a fun necklace! Thanks for including me in your giveaway! Waxela (wa-shay-la) SpiritMama http://www.spiritmama-art.blogspot.com

Sorry Waxela, I haven’t had a chance to upload the images of my pendants yet. So we can do one of two things – 1) you can wait for me to get around taking some photographs of the pendants I have already. 2) You can let me know what sort of thing you’d like and I can custom make you a pendant of your own. This will take a little longer, but then not only will you have a one-off pendant, it will be to your specifications.

I decided to do an extra draw for the people that took the time to answer my question in the original post. The winner of this draw will receive the pendant shown on this post. The winner of the second draw is from the  ‘answered the question’ comment list – #48

Ellen (Max Scent Soy Candles) // February 5, 2009 at 6:50 am
Thanks for visiting my OWOH Soy Tart giveaway. My life is not as WILD as it used to be since Max (of Max Scent) came into it, but it is all the more PRECIOUS because of him. I plan on using my W&P Life to teach Max how to be someone that others can count on.Please enter me into your generous drawing. I can’t wait to see what the prize is!

winnerprize2-owoh

Disappointed if you didn’t win? Don’t despair. Rather than killing my budget with lots of postage all at the same time, I’m  going to extend the life of my giveaway a bit and will announce a few other prizes and winners over the next couple of months. They’ll be chosen from the original giveaway list too and the prizes will be ATCs, handmade cards and maybe a few goodie bags too. I did say I’d add prizes and give them away however I felt like it! To the lucky winners, congratulations. To Lisa, the organiser of this fantastic blogging event – a huge thankyou and congratulations on bringing together such a talented group of people and making the world a smaller place. To you, thank you for reading my blog. If there’s anything you’d like to see more of here please let me know. I’m still in early stages in blogland and would love to be posting things here that people actually want to see.  =)